10 3 / 2014
A disease that a person who leaves in a relationship always, always carries. It lies in the fact that you never felt the feeling of hanging by a thread and somebody just cut it off for you. And the worst part is, you fell. You felt pain not just because something has swollen but because something has been ripped open.
You never felt that. Hopefully, you won’t ‘cause it hurts like shit. And I felt her pain. She’s someone that plays a vital role in my life, so I always felt that pain in her back that she carries. And you never knew that. ‘Cause you are that insensitive.
10 3 / 2014
Nice idea that you are not alone in doing school stuffs. But I hate it to the universe and back because sometimes I feel like the whole group make you do all bullshits and leave you to live their lives to the fullest. TWO WORDS FOR YOU BITCH, GO DIE. YOU DESERVE TO EAT MY MIDDLE FINGER. ....
07 3 / 2014
Maybe no one is ever enough for everybody. No one is ever enough for anyone. Even you are not enough for yourself. No matter how we try to contain our feelings to be just right and to be right, you just can’t. I’ve tried so hard to change, but it isn’t enough. I’ve become a monster that lived inside a shell. I can’t escape. I’ve tried to loosen the grip of the chains but it’s just too tight. I can’t breathe. Then, I just realized maybe just maybe no matter how we flush the monster away it would return for vengeance. Maybe just maybe, we were never enough. Like you are, I wasn’t.
01 3 / 2014
Memories creates our personalities. Back then, I was too sick of everyday. Waking up, doing the same shits. But then one morning you’ll open those damn eyes. Wishing that everything would go back. Go back to where it should be. Go back when I was who I am.
01 3 / 2014
I have made a simplest mistake;
Simplest among the simplest mistakes.
Core of an eye is focused on me,
Its iris took away my glee.
Mouths where a dragon lays
Ears where tidal wave sways.
An error with the littlest reason,
Cuts deep that held all season.
28 10 / 2013
Since when was the last time you sat down and poured out all the shitty things in the world that has been magnetized by your vibes. Since when was the last time you were overwhelmed by those butterflies in your stomach. Since when was the last time you were as simple as everyone and you were utterly just a man in the street.
Humans are incapacitated to remember every bits of our memories. But sometimes having the thought of the smallest things that puzzled our memories would be nicer than remembering big ones but expected to bring heavier emotions.