Instead of me trying to cope up with life here i am laying on this bed and writing in this stupid note. I am so drowned with my own quicksand. It’s pulling me down and I can’t seem to get up because I know I’m not even trying. I always lose what I am. Coz i never really knew what I am in the first place. Always trying to keep everything steady but procrastinating on my own virtues. I do not know what to do. I do not even know how to deal with people around me. I don’t know who to trust, where to go, what to do to change things once again. I’ve been always afraid of failing because it’s a domino shot for me. Once something falls down, everything follows. And it did i fell and there’s no way to go but up and I’m not even lifting myself up.
"I promise". Two words. JUST two words that can entirely change the orbit of our fates. We are young, vulnerable and clueless of what these two words really are. When you’re in love you intentionally give up the power of your choice. You utterly change your principles, rules and ideas that you made to secure yourself from pain. Mostly, you declare these words not to give an assurance to your relationship but to hold on to a rope that you unconsciously know would break when someone does the job of cutting it for you. But I shall say, these words would mean powerless without the actions. Actions would be done if a choice was made. And so everyone, a promise is not an assurance it is a choice.
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